The All Time Low

All Time Low I believe is a pretty good band...if you still like the 'emo' genre which I can't seem to shake. Melee is pretty good too, they are more of a soul rock. Courtesy of purevolume.com

_I haven't reached my all time low. Wait, is it something you reach for? I haven't fallen to my all time low and for the time being I don't believe I ever will. Spoke with my therapist today as I have for the previous three weeks. Everything seems to be going well for me on the outside ever since my first visit. 'On the outside' I said, 'I have nothing to complain about. Career wise. I'm comfortable...the fact that I'm 23 satisfies me becasue I know I'm not going to be at that place forever, its only temporary. And come to think of it most of the things I worry about are only temporary such as my living situation, my financial situation and things like that." And she cuts me off, I thought they weren't supposed to do that. 'Todd' says she, 'Let's change pace for a second. Let me ask you, when are you going to stop beating yourself up about your percieved failures and in turn regrets? Do you ever feel any form of accomplishment when you do things right?' My response, 'I don't know if its possible for me to stop beating myself up and when I feel like I've done something right it feels like it was something that was supposed to happen. I feel like I had nothing to do with it and things just fell into place. People sacrifice themselves anddo great things all of the time' And at that moment an epiphany fell into my lap. 'And people also make mistakes all of the time'...and thats true. I'm sick of regrets. I can't change the past no matter how much I wish to do so. I do however have some power to change, or effect the future. Some believe their 'fate' is already laid out for them. I don't. I'm only 23. Some poeple will love me and some poeple will not. Do I choose the people I love? Do I choose the people I do not love? Do I choose to love myself? Everything will not go as I planned and I will not get everything I want. I'm only 23. At times I feel extremely ambitious. At this point I feel exactly that. I'm excited to even have the chance to live this life. I have a future. We all can do whatever we want to. We can accomplish whatever we want. I still have dreams and goals and I'm only 23. I love life. I couldnt say that weeks ago. I'm okay._

_The All Time Alrightness_


I'm still waiting on my sidekick. It crapped out on me about two weeks ago and I've been off the radar. Withdrawl...not yet. 72 hours from it.

I care so much for you and if time will tell, then I will make time my friend. Whatever it takes.